Thursday, October 14, 2010

Why did you stopped reading my e-mails?

Why did you stopped checking your e-mails? Still afraid that what I said might still change your mind? Only you has the power to control over the thing that's happening around you. Only you can decide as to whether your decision will be good and beneficial to all.


I felt so bad that after all the e-mails I sent you, all are still unread. It's been quite a while when I stopped checking on your e-mails for your privacy reasons because there are some more e-mails from other people which I might be tempted to read. But jut this evening, I thought of checking it again, thinking that maybe, just maybe you read some of my e-mails but you just refused to reply. 


I've been going through our chat history, thinking it might make me feel any better, but it only made me feel worst. Like i said to my friend, I'm like this because I just miss the feeling of being loved. Most especially, the feeling of being loved and cared by you.


Well, I guess this is how this really goes. All has to end. And like what you said, Nothing is constant in this world but change. And change can either be good or bad for us. 


Make me forget that you said that "you will always be here" even if you grow old and get cranky. I thought you are my dude and will always be my dude even if the feeling is no longer there. Dudes should always remain dudes. Just for the sake of it. Friends must not leave ever. But why did you left? 


Please come back, just for one time, even just for a short time, please talk to me.